Tomorrow will mark two years since I lost someone very close to my heart. And even though I think of him daily, it is around this time of year that his absence is most poignant. Nearly two years have passed, a lifetime in some respects, yet the memories remain as vivid as if they had happened mere moments ago. I try not to reflect with too much detail because, the truth is, it still hurts. You never know which word or embrace will be your last; you just hope that you end with a good one. Because, in the end, all we have are our memories. I’m blessed that mine are rose-colored and lovely. Some people are in our lives for years and they leave without the slightest impression. Others pass though only briefly and change us at our very core. Soul mates maybe. And not necessarily in the romantic sense. More that you were fated to meet for a reason. Because they were needed in you life at that particular moment. And sometimes, when their job is done, they move on. Whether or not you were ready to let go.
They say that time heals all wounds. I suppose that is true. But, loss is a deep puncture to the heart. The pain is never as acute as it was in the beginning. The sharpness dulls to an ache. Eventually, the wound heals. But, it never mends to it’s original form. There is always a scar. Maybe it’s no longer as painful. Still, it’s always there. As a remembrance. And I kind of like that. Almost like a tattoo on the heart; a reminder that you will carry with you always. As much as I try to make some sort of sense out of the whole thing, at the end it doesn’t really matter how or why. What matters is that he was. In my heart, he still is. And that is enough.
Michelle Mason dress (similar $, similar $$), Uniqlo tights, Prada Mary Jane pumps (similar $, similar $$$), Henri Bendel gold headband (similar $, similar $$, similar $$$), Clare Vivier clutch, Kelly Wearstler bracelet (similar, similar), bodychain (similar $, similar $$), Artelier World Cuff, XIV Karats necklace (similar $, similar $$$, similar $$$$), Catbird, XIV Karats and ginette_ny rings (similar), Jouer Hydrating Lipstick in Grace
Photos by Michele LoBosco
In loving memory.