I don’t know if I was really ever a kid. I mean, obviously I was young once. Duh. But, I wasn’t a carefree, wind in my hair, tree-climbing child. (My mother loves to say that she could send me to kindergarden in a white dress and I would come home spotless. This leads me to believe that I was not much fun.) Which is strange because, as I’ve grown up, I see parts of myself becoming much more childlike. I was a sedentary child, never taking risks or going out of my comfort zone. I have grown into a very active adult, accepting challenges and taking risks that I never would have before. Little me never graduated beyond a somersault; big me is boxing, surfing and shooting guns. I was a very serious youngster. Now, I am often non-serious to a fault. I can find the humor in almost anything, from the corny to the very dark. Perhaps I’m hiding behind my laughter. My feeling is that if you don’t laugh, you’ll cry instead. This growing down, as it were, began a couple of years ago. Within the span of less than five months, I lost two loves (first, my dog of 16 years, and then this young man). After a lot of insomnia, heartache and soul searching, I came to find that I could no longer afford to sweat the small stuff. Because, at the end of the day, it’s all pretty much small stuff. Nothings that, no matter how big they seem at this moment, will be long forgotten in a few days time. It’s our relationships that matter, those we have and those we’ve had. I definitely take those that matter very seriously. But, as I’ve grown up, I’ve come to find that the things that matter in life are few and far between. So I cherish those few and try to laugh at the rest. Because life’s too short. It took me a long time to arrive at this youthful freedom. But, I’m not sweating it. At least I got here.
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Photos by Michele LoBosco