I have some major life changes rapidly approaching. Nothing I’m ready to make public yet; but thoughts of these transitions have been consuming me and, when I sat down to write, I could think of nothing else. So, as opposed to a fluffy post about my swirly skirt, I’ll write about the only thing I can really think about right now- change. I, like most of us, am a creature of habit. I try to stick to some sort of structure in my unstructured life, probably as some attempt at normalcy and control. And also because changing the structure I’ve grown accustomed to would be unsettling. As much as I love to experiment with fashion, try new foods and travel to unknown lands, I’ve found that when it comes to my everyday life, I avoid change at all costs. I’ve stayed in relationships and jobs for much longer than I should, sacrificing myself and my happiness because change was scarier than unhappiness. But recently, I’ve become dissatisfied with parts of my life. A few things haven’t worked out as I had hoped they would and when I was offered the opportunity to switch things up, I didn’t take much convincing. I was probably overly optimistic just because I was looking forward to an escape. But, as the reality of the changes are settling in, I am realizing that I may not be exchanging bad for good but rather one for another. Things are not perfect now, but they are comfortable. I know where I am and where I am going, and there is a security in that. As for the future, I don’t know the when or where of my next step. I just know that it is flying towards me at breakneck speed and I am scared. Everyone keeps telling me that I am making the right decision; I feel like I am walking the dark. All I can do is hope and pray and keep my support system strong. Change is inevitable. But that doesn’t mean it’s easy.
Vintage army jacket (similar $$, similar $$$), LNA v-neck (similar $), skirt purchased in India, Iro black sandals (similar $,similar $$$), bodychain (similar $, similar $$, similar $$$$), Artelier World Cuff, XIV Karats necklace (similar $$$$), Catbird, XIV Karats and ginette_ny rings (similar), Jouer Hydrating Lipstick in Grace
Photos by Michele LoBosco