I am an introvert. It’s something that I’ve always known and never really liked about myself. Chances are that if we’ve met, you may never realize it (you might even find me extroverted) because I’ve become pretty good at hiding it. But, the truth is that I’m more comfortable speaking to a crowd of a thousand than I am walking into a room of a dozen strangers.
Confessions of an introvert
As I’ve grown older, I’ve accepted my introverted self as part of what makes me me. I don’t love it. I see myself missing out on opportunities because of it. It’s just who I am. I bring this up because it’s been brought to my attention (more than once) that I’ve chosen an unusual career path for someone so private. While at first I agreed, upon later reflection, I started to wonder if my choices have been so strange after all.
I didn’t start a blog to become famous. I didn’t even start it to make money. When I created The LA Survival Guide, my only goal was to have a creative outlet. Over the years, the blog has morphed into a brand. It is still my creative outlet. But, it’s become so much more. Most notably, it has grown into a business. While there are few things better than getting paid to do what you would willingly do for free, selling something always means selling out, even if it’s just a tiny bit. Which I’m totally not above. However, when the majority of my revenue is garnered through social media, this can be tricky for someone who is an introvert and isn’t the most social. Don’t get me wrong; I love my friends and being out and about with interesting, new people. I just also really love my quiet time. What’s funny is that, for the longest time, I didn’t even use Instagram as a business tool. But then someone suggested that I utilize it to promote my blog and the rest is history. The thing about social media (especially when you do it professionally) is that you’re always expected to be “on.” Which I’m not. And the more you share, the better. In real life, if you know me, I’m an open book. But until I feel comfortable, I keep my cards closed. So to be expected to share my day-to-day triumphs and tribulations with over a hundred thousand people has been uncomfortable. I love to share my photos and musings. But, all of these have been edited and curated to my liking. I don’t like people to see the messy, which is what Instagram Stories and Snapchat thrive on. Some might argue that I’m not sharing the real me. I would argue that there are two “mes”- the public me and the private one. Neither self is more authentic. But I’ve had to create the two as a mean of self-preservation; a way of working in the public eye while maintaining a life that is private and my own. While I didn’t choose this public place, I’m extraordinarily grateful for it. Being a blogger/influencer continues to exceed my expectations on a daily basis. But, given my introvert personality, I’ve had to make choices to be successful professionally and comfortable personally. While the limited behind the scenes content may make me less relatable than some of my counterparts, please bear with me. I’m still getting comfortable.
Photos by Michele LoBosco